Sunday, December 22, 2013

Waiting...


So you wait. You wait for school to start. You wait for school to end. You wait for the big vacation trip. You wait for graduation. You wait for Mr/Ms Right. You wait for the baby to be born, and then for it to sleep through the night, and then for it to go to school and for it to come home from school…and this begins to sound familiar. You wait for the promotion and for the raise and for the paycheck, or sometimes for the job to show up. You wait for retirement and for pension checks.

You wait to die.

Through it all, you wait with longing that is sometimes passionate and sometimes faint but persevering, for Jesus to come.

They waited. “Redeemer,” said the angel at Eden’s gates, and “Messiah,” said the prophets, and the centuries and the lifetimes slid by, and they waited.

When you’re the one doing the waiting, it’s endless. It might be ten minutes for the phone call or a week for the medical test results or nine months for the pregnancy or hours for the birth, but it’s all forever.

“It’s all relative,” said Einstein. “

To me, all times are soon,” said Aslan.

“God is patient,” said Peter.

And still we wait.

Advent comes every year. At least you only have to wait one trip around the sun for that. Then you only have to wait a month for Christmas. It’s a time when we can rediscover both the waiting and the end of waiting. When the little girl and her fiancĂ© got through the night at the stable, and the waiting was over, it had still just begun. There was babyhood to be got through, and childhood (bar mitzvah, Son of the Covenant) and then 18 years at home waiting for the ministry to begin.

That 3 ½ years must have gone by in a flash. Not so the hours of the “trial,” or, God help us, the crucifixion. Or the grave…But that part ended. And IT WAS DONE!

Then he said, “I’ll be back. Soon!”


And so we wait. Even so, come, Lord Jesus!


Friday, December 20, 2013

Sh’ma by the River 5—Loving the Great Spirit with All My Little Soul


Hear, O Israel,
the Lord your God, the Lord is One.
You shall love the Lord your God
with all your heart
and with all your mind
and with all your soul
and with all your strength.*

Many people separate soul from spirit and think of them as two different things, or as two different aspects of selfhood. I don’t do that. As Adventists, we believe a human being is a soul, rather than possessing a soul. We believe we are one being, that mind and body cannot be separated (except for consideration, such as in this series). What we do with our thoughts affects our physical health. What we do with our bodies affects our spiritual health. It’s all one.

If I were to draw a diagram of the self, it would look something like this:



The three smaller circles would be the body, mind, and heart, or emotions. The little spot in the center is where we are our full, true selves—all elements and aspects of us living and functioning as one whole being—a human soul. The large circle represents the Holy Spirit—the soul or spirit of God, “in whom we live and move and have our being.”

During this series, we have considered how to learn better to love God, others, and ourselves from our whole physical selves, our whole minds, and our whole hearts. To learn what it means to love God, others, and ourselves with our whole souls, just put it all together. Simple. Hard! Almost impossible! But simple. When all of our little circles are centered inside God’s big circle, then the peace God brings seeps into the center. It comes into our stomachs, and calms them. It comes into our emotions and lives with us in and through them. It comes into our heads and gives us a new outlook on life.

Simple, it may be, but it can also be scary. In the Bible, the Holy Spirit is often likened to wind. (The Hebrew and Greek words are the same—so is the English, but we’ve kind of lost it inside other words: inspire, respire, and perspire all share the same base as spirit, and they’re all about breath. So, for that matter, is expire.) Today, here in the last week of my Cape Breton Sabbatical by the river, the wind is so powerful it reminds me of that text in Acts, about “the sound of a mighty, rushing wind.” The cabin is shaking. When I went outside, I experienced something I’ve often said, but it’s never been actually true before—the wind really did nearly knock me down. When I would pick up a foot to take a step, that leg would be blown out from under me. The wind blew away my ice chest and all its contents, and took a large wooden picnic table off the porch and dumped it in the yard in two pieces.

Today, beside the river (from a safe distance, inside) I’m thinking about what it might really mean to throw my whole, puny, little spirit, my whole broken self, all my body, all my mind, all my heart, all my love, into the whirlwind that is the Holy Spirit of God, and go wherever that  Spirit chooses to take me.

Do I have the nerve?

Do you?






*These words combine the Sh’ma, found in Deut 6:4, 5, with Jesus’ words in Luke10:27, to give all four:  heart, mind, soul, and strength.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Sh’ma by the River, 4: Loving God with One’s Heart



Thou shalt love the Lord thy God
with all thy heart…

Loving from the heart seems like a no-brainer. Literally. Of course we love with our hearts. That’s where all emotions are seated, right? Or maybe the bowels, which is what the Hebrews used in this context. It seems to me that other societies have used other body parts, possibly the liver, certainly the brain, as the seat of emotion, but even Wikipedia is failing me on this one.

In the immortal words of Dr. Temperance Brennan, of TV Bones fame, “The heart is nothing but a pump.” True. However, I believe there’s good reason why humans have always thought emotions, positive and negative, (love, hate, fear, anger, happiness, sorrow, contentment, etc.), rise from body organs. There is a connection. Emotions make our blood pressure rise and drop, increase and decrease heart rate, adrenaline, dopamine, and more. Feelings, to put it more succinctly, are feelings.



The river overflowed its banks this week. I assume it did so just to give me good subject matter for this devotion. Emotions are scary for some of us. (I am one of them.) We have been raised so carefully to believe in “mind over matter,” and being mature and rational and in control and all that. We even name self-control as a gift of the Spirit. But the Greek word used in Galatians 5:23 is egkrateia, which means temperance. (Huh. Wonder what Bones would think about that?)

Temperance means the middle way. Not too hot, not too cold. Not too controlled by emotion, and not too controlled by brain. The river is essential to life, I want to say, when it’s contained within its banks, wending its merry way, not too low, not too high. But my analogy suffers a little when I think about the millions who depended for millennia on the seasonal flooding of the Nile, for one example.  Is it okay to overflow once in a while? And what does that mean?  Give way to emotion? Surely not…

Unless “give way” is taken literally. Make a way, or a path, make allowance for feeling.

When the Baddeck River overflowed this week, I don’t know if it caused harm or damage. I know it didn’t here, because there’s a nice big swale between the house and the riverbank. Room for it to swell, and to go back down again. A place for it to deposit, perhaps, all kinds of life-giving nutrients for future growth in the meadows.

This devotional did not go in the direction I had planned for it. I’m just saying.

Love God, others, self, from the heart. With the full strength of emotions. Without doing harm.

What does that mean?


Sunday, December 1, 2013

Sh’ma by the River 3, Loving God with All Your Mind



Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy…mind…




When I walk by the river and think of mind, I think of flow, of current, of direction. The river is born to seek the ocean, and that’s all it does. Our minds were born to seek God, but they, unlike the river, have free choice. We are even free to choose to believe we have no free choice. Consider that one for a minute!

I see the river doing all kinds of things at once, just like my mind. In the middle, it’s rushing along without much impedance, heading ever downhill. Then there are stretches that rush and ruffle over rocks and sandbars—impeded, but not letting the obstacles stop it. In fact, you could anthropomorphize (not that I would ever be guilty of that!!) and say the river seems to enjoy the obstacles.

Along the edges, there are spots where the river slows, circles, seems to get nowhere, but as long as it’s still connected to the main flow, that part of the water will move along, too, just at a different pace.

I mentioned last week that people used to be able to care for this river, to keep an open channel. I got to wondering what things I do, or could do, that keep an open channel in my mind?

I’ve noticed that one thing that makes the river flow more freely is rain. At first, I thought of this in the usual, even clichĂ©d interpretation  of rain as adversity, but for the river, rain is not adversity, rain is life. Rain, to fill my mind, might be the water of the Holy Spirit’s presence.

Side waters might be good, for breaks, but how can I keep them from becoming separated from the flow, and getting stagnant?

I can use my mind to love myself by not allowing obstacles to get me down, by not speaking to myself in hurtful ways I would never use with another, by, as a friend of mine puts it, “paying attention to what I’m paying attention to!”

I can use my mind to love others by my words, written and spoken, by listening carefully when they speak, and watching their faces for the things they can’t say in words.

I can use my mind to love God by casting out into the depths of that immense, unfathomable love, by thinking of that love and patience and majesty, by trying (and failing!) to put some of it into words.


How do you keep your mind flowing free with love?

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Sh'ma By the River: Loving God with One’s Body



As I walked the riverbank, I was thinking about the water versus the stones. Stones look a lot stronger than water. Water is so changeable, shimmering and glimmering around all over the place. A baby can shove it aside. A bug can walk on it. Fish even breathe it. Water is weak, right?

Stone, on the other hand, seems eternal. There it stands, holding firm, immovable. Big boulders and earth form the banks and boundaries of the water. Layer upon layer of smaller stones make up its bed, hold it on its way, keep it from sinking back down under the strata. Stone is strong.

The problem, of course, is time. The river, like all water, “seeks the path of least resistance,” but while it merrily chuckles on its way, it patiently and oh so constantly wears away at its banks, polishes the stones, grinds small ones smaller, and smallest ones into sand.

Once, people maintained this river. Among other things, they kept a channel dug, so salmon could get through easily. Now, the Crown doesn’t allow any modifications at all. So the river was taking out large chunks of pasture every year. The owners of the cabin got special permission to dump 90 square metres of big stone along the bank on the curve. So that’s how the big stones that hold the bank got here in the first place. Otherwise, the river would have changed its course again, as it has so many times.

Water is stronger than stone, after all.

Thou shalt love the Lord with all thy. . . strength. . . and thy neighbor as thyself.

In my analogy du jour, the water represents my mind. We’ll talk more of that next week. The earth and stone represent my body. And so it is, that the mind can wear away the body, if you let it. If you don’t maintain the body.

It seems to me that the first piece of loving God with one’s body—first in order, not in importance—is loving the body itself—taking care of it, nourishing it, feeding it, keeping a clear channel within it that leads to the ocean of God’s love. (Which of course means that love from and to God came first, after all. Can’t love this body unless I recognize that it’s God’s treasure, made by, and yes, loved by the Creator of all.)

Lately, rather to my own surprise, I’ve realized that morning grooming, and breakfast, and so on, are a real part of morning worship. I am loving God with my body when I take care of it. Or, more properly put perhaps, I am making my body strong and healthy, ready for use in loving.

The next piece is loving others as we love ourselves, which can’t mean in the same exact ways (unless the other in question is a baby or child or ill person whom we do actually feed, groom, and dress) but means loving others as much as we love ourselves. It’s been a hard lesson for me and many others to learn that the limit to our ability to love others lies, in part, in the limits we set on loving ourselves. Those limits can be set at either end of the spectrum, of course—true love is neither neglect nor overindulging.

I can use my body to love others by hugging them, listening to them, helping them, cooking for them, making things for them, and many other ways. May I have eyes to see the opportunities.

First, last, and always, comes love of God. In the ways in which we choose to show love to ourselves, we are loving God. In the ways in which we choose to show love to others, we are loving God. But we must also express our love direct to God, not through others. Do we use our bodies enough to do that?

I can use my body to show love to God by singing, using different positions in prayer, even dancing. I remember a story—you’ve probably heard it—about a child dancing and twirling around her back yard. Her mother asked what she was doing, and she replied happily, “I’m dancing with God!”

When was the last time you danced with God?

What are some of the ways you use your body to love God, others, and yourself?


What are some of the ways you maintain your body in good shape for that work of loving?


Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Sh'ma by the River



I have been considering the depths of the ancient prayer known as the Sh’ma for several years now. There is a great deal to consider, just in the first two lines.

Sh’ma Yis’ra’eil Adonai Eloheinu Adonai echad.
V’ahav’ta eit Adonai Elohekha
b’khol l’vav’kha
uv’khol naf’sh’kha
uv’khol m’odekha.*

Hear, O Israel! The LORD is our God, the LORD is one!
You shall love the LORD your God
with all your heart
and with all your soul
and with all your might.

In Luke 10: 27, answering the question of the lawyer, Jesus added “with all your mind.”
"You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind.” (NASB)

I’ve been considering what it means to love God with all those elements of my whole self. We Westerners are very good at the mind part. So were the Jews. They and we love to debate and study and exegete. Lots of Christians enjoy the same today. And there’s nothing wrong with that. But it may not be particularly devotional.

This morning, by the river, I stood in the current (in my high boots, you understand!) and considered the mind and how it’s like the river. And I decided to do a series. It might ask more questions than it answers, but that’s okay. My hope is that it will raise emotions, too, not just brainwaves. (Well, not just beta waves, anyway. I suppose all our emotional states show up in our brainwaves.)

This week is the introduction. Here are the preliminary questions to consider:

How do you, personally, practice the deep love of the One God:
                --with all your heart?
                --with all your soul/spirit?
                --with all your mind?
                --with all your strength?

Each of the next four weeks, I’ll be pondering by the side of my borrowed river, and I’ll share my thoughts and questions with you. I hope you’ll share yours with me, too.



Monday, November 4, 2013

Be, Like a Tree






I climbed a hill today and leaned in the arms of an old silver birch. Neil Diamond’s Be, from Jonathan Livingston Seagull was floating in my mind, and I thought,

Be

Like a tree

Stand patiently through whatever weather comes

Reach always for the sky, but also ground yourself deep
Even when the soil is being washed away beneath you

Withstand insect attack, woodpeckers, and disease…
Heal around the wounds, if you can…

Let go the lovely leaves you’ve worked so hard on
Wait silently through winter
Grow new, little ones

When the time comes
Fall gently
Still reach for the sky while you can
Nurture those coming after you

Like a tree
Be




Somebody said, “To learn patience, cultivate the friendship of trees.